Recalculating.

It always takes me a bit of time to decompress after a trip. I have to let go of the “away me” and turn back into the “home me.”

So now I’m back home after the first four days of a seven-day Kansas Leadership Center conference, and I’m monitoring my internal GPS pretty deliberately.

In the last four days I’ve been challenged to:

• move out of my comfort zone…over and over and over again
• take immediate risks and plan for even bigger, intentional risks
• be in relationships of accountability over the next few months
• take a good hard look at myself, looking for exactly what it is I value and what it is I fear – competing interests that are keeping me from moving forward in my acts of leadership

So I’ve got all that fermenting. There’s big work to do – almost immediately. And in the meantime, life happens:

• groceries, errands, chores, bills to pay
• executing plans for a bathroom rennovation project
• continued health challenges for our younger daughter – new issues have come to light
• another opportunity for a new part-time challenge
• extended family issues at the back of my mind, prodding their way to the front
• daily work details that must be attended to AT THE SAME TIME as working on making meaningful, adaptive change.

So yeah, there’s been a lot going on this week. And I’m still pondering, still expanding, still recalculating.

Up next on “The Never-Ending Ruminations of My Hyper-Introspective Mind” : A conversation about race relations that still has me reeling.

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